Saturday, 19 November 2011


project is over - it went really well.
I'm now a week into decompression and I feel like crap.
I ache, I'm tired, the self loathing is at an all time high.

I have cooked lots of amazing food in the last week so eating healthily will be easy for the next 10 days and then I get to go away to the sunshine which will be lovely.  My exercise kicks off tomorrow with a pilates day which should be great and then I want to keep it going until I go away.

I know objectively that these are good things.  I'm just not feeling it right now.

Saturday, 15 October 2011


I really need to set aside a regular time each week to go through internet dating emails and respond.  I think it's been about two weeks since I logged-on last!

ok - I have a plan...

... last week at work was crazy-mental (the start of the tender response process and seeing how reality responded to plan) culminating in a fuck-up in IT leading me to think that all of my work from the previous two weeks had gone (it looked for a moment [read - 2 hours] that a server-crash had restored to a back-up from September 27th and also over-ridden all of the back-ups in between). It was all ok in the end but, needless to say, I was pretty broken by the end of last night.

the solution for restoration of sanity was that I got up this morning, reworked the plan for the project, figured out exactly what I need to get done this weekend, and then spent the rest of the day in Westeros (I'm a third of the way through Book 3).

tomorrow I have a lot of work to get through, but I think it's manageable, and I hope that having chilled out today will make it easier. I've also got to remember that I've had flu in the last 2 weeks and am not completely better, and that I mustn't let my confidence go on this project (as client seems really happy and they're talking about bringing me back in January to run another project for them).

ahhh - just remembered that I forgot to pick up my dry-cleaning AGAIN today. It's been two weeks and if I don't go and get it, they'll throw it out! I think maybe that I need to pick it up on Monday morning (which means not going to the gym before work, so maybe not). Ok - will have a think as to how to solve...

but really - I DO have a plan. It will be ok. Honestly.

in other news - I really do need to arrange what to do for my birthday on Monday - I am excited as I get to be 33 and I haven't done that before!

Wednesday, 12 October 2011

So I don't think the LJ thing is working out...

... I think I may come back here and hang for a while.